Title ka kya karna......

Some people in this world think I am a sadist and one of those guys who spits bitter thoughts on papers and blogs as well.Well loneliness can do great damages to one self esteem and a bitter fight with the best friend and the only trusted friend that you have in this big city called bengaluru can leave your thoughts and emotions scattered just like the BJP party of today.The other friends of mine expect me to be as cheerful as ever but then "fake behavior " is not one of things that my parents have taught me.Arey bhai jab mann kharab ho toh kya muh pe hasi lekar ghoomtha rahooo kya!!!.Sometimes I sit an contemplate as how these actors and actresses inspite of facing so many problems that lead to immense mental trauma try to spill emotions on the screen.Talking of spilling emotions,dont every try doing it in a fight with a loved one, it might be construed in as many ways as possible .The other person might think that you are trying to hurt him/her back else will just get mad at you for playing the "blame game".It is rather advisable to stay calm an silent if you are peace loving person and you really care for the other person do stay silent if its worth the pain.

Suddenly I find a lot of similarity between the events that are takin place in my life and Indian politics both so confusing and so cruel that leave the outsiders wondering and unable to construe them.Suddely the best of the outings and even my new hair cut fail to pump up my mood simply cause I feel like i am missing something and I know that me getting that thing or even desiring one wouldn't help as it purely does not depend upon my choices.To add to my woes are the [V] trailers,the repeated telecasts of these trailers make me go mad sometimes specially when I am sitting near the person whom I fought just minutes back an cursing my self under my breath as why i let such a thing happen that is when the trailers re-appear again to haunt me just like those obstinate spirits of horror movies.

Fights with a person whom you like can make you feel more tensed and nervous than a school kid appearing for his board exams.All the rules of joy and sorrow sharing does not seem to be working specially when you do not want these things to be shared with anyone cause the third person might end up passing his/her own judgements on u or ur friend.What does one do, pretty simple situation for the one not involved.However being in such a painful situation in itself is an endeavour to be praised and from the pain are born the bitter chain of thoughts that blast the ones involved an cause more damage than a nuclear blasts would have done physically.
If only people who advise me to forget everything also provide me with a shot on my head so that i suffer from "short term memory loss" i could do a lot more good to myself today by forgetting what happend just hours back and what triggered it.Diverting one's mind to other things and passions in life does help but then when both ur heart an mind fail to deviate from the path of sadness an pain ,little is there that one can do to and ofcourse resorts to bring out a third force to bring one self out of the mess he has got himself into.I divert my attention to the TV in the room only to get back to the [V] trailers this time even more distressing with those UK returned sardarji's fiddling with woman in their videos.Cant some one stop them from falaunting around with their money and most importantly cant some one stop this feeling inside me cause i cant fight it anymore.

In the end i guess if you do not have any one to fall back on or understand your emotions you can always turn to "Mr.Time".He oints our wounds and as the time passes by one might also forget the grudges and the fights,people are forgiven and the friends who once thought they were of wavelenths as different as Brad Pitt and Vajapayee might find something in common and therefore I wait for that day cause i hate giving up on people and myself and I hate spilling my venomous thoughts like these on blogs.

As I told you earlier you spilling out ur emotions during an argument can be interpreted in many different ways.You might end up hurting the other person by playing the blame game but then you need to tell the other person how do you feel about things.This is a very tricky position for a person like me who is not good at arguing and therefore I end up saying things that i shouldn't instead of proving the point that needs to be.I feel so horrible also because all this happened in amidst India loosing against Sri lanka and erasing its hopes to enter the super eighth of this world cup 2007.Indian batsmens' presence at the crease have suddenly become so rare that even before we know that Indian innings have started they seems to have lost 6-7 wickets.Now everybody cant be as confident as Rakhi Sawant in the miniest(i hope there is superlative degree like that) of skirts.There is too much pressure on Indian cricketers.This sport can drive people crazy.Its us that have to understand that such conditions are not favourable for our players.I felt so sad for Rahul Dravid who seemed to be crying at the award function after the sri lankan win.I can myself feel the pressure on the shoulders of the Indian bowlers when they get hit for 6 by 17 yrs old lad of Bangaladesh.Its very natural to loose and win but its creates immense pressure when such losses and wins are taken as a prestige for a team.I seriously think that our team lost cos of the immense pressure and expectations of the Indian crowd.So i again spill out my bitterness on this blog rather than spilling out to one of my friends who might hold some other opinion .Aab aap apne opinion apne paas rakho.... agar kuch bolne ke liye ho toh i suggest u make a blog of ur own an start writing off your feelings.

And for all those who criticize my new hair cut ... Take a chill pill cause for the first time i personally feel that the new hair cut has given me self-esteem boost, though some of them might be laughing at me from inside but i just dont care. and for the sole daring reason i shall update this blog with a photo of mine later when i feel like.!!!!!